Memo Pad lost and not on DM

Please help me out folks! I upgraded my 8320 Curve's software to 4.5. I was never given an option to select what I wanted to install. I assumed it would install everything I previously had, WRONG! I had to go to my backup files for my address book, etc. However my MEMO PAD is gone!!! And it's not on my DM! It was hidden (as I read in some of the forums), however it says compose, which is the only option. What happen to all the info I had saved on the MEMO PAD?? Please help me, I been updating this for hours! I'm so fustrated! I feel like I should have never updated at all. HELP ME PLEASE!!! I'm going nuts!!! Thx!

Open your desktop Manager and go into the app loader section. You should be able to add the ones you need by just checking the box beside them.

Hope this works for ya.